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[anthropomorphic skitzo]

Just something I've really been feeling this week. Wrote it down. It's still in a working progress which means I may change it so it sounds better and so that the thoughts are more in order rather than being so random as they are now.

"Carving in my Heart"

Swarming. Inside me. A burning. A sharp sting. A jabbed in dagger twisting. Carving your name into my… heart.
Your name is in my every breath screaming its release through my lips.
I obsess over your every movement, expression, word, sound you make.
I want our hands to latch together. I want our skin to clash together.
Your sweat and mine. I’ll hold your gaze forever.
I love it when we hold eyes.
When your eyes meet mine I’m paralyzed and my own lock to yours. Hypnotized.
I’ve tried letting go of you. I don’t want to want you. But somehow you hold me.
I wish you’d release me. Because every time I see you, it takes my hopes too high because though you acknowledge me, you don’t see me.
That’s my fault. Some how I try too hard to reveal my true self, and it is just this that causes me to fail.
And you’re such a mystery to the world. So hard to read.
That’s how you want it to be.
Truth be told you’re undecided of how you want to be seen.
You’re beyond a masked man. You’re faceless!
But your physical gestures full of grace an complexity, your fashion frame, and twisted mental strategy,
Your fast pace mentality, though rarely impulsive and usually calculated before set free,
Overrule your obscurity.
Because I am lured in by suspense and mystery
Captivated by your temerity.
I don’t want to unmask you if the façade is your security
I only want to understand you
And for you to see that there is more to me, that I am complex too.
I wish you would want to piece together the puzzle that is me just as badly.
Because of you, I now know that I can be hurt and that I am breakable. Because of you, I know the true definition of humanity - the thing I’ve always felt furthest from.
I’ve never been so vulnerable and over powered and understated until your presence.
So hindered until I amount to nothing in your eye but the opposite of what I am.
You turn my confidence into submissiveness
I’d throw myself at you, but that would be tasteless and I’ve finely found class.
You remain…
Swarming. Inside me. A burning. A sharp sting. A jabbed in dagger twisting and carving through me. You’ve carved your way into my…

Your name is carved in my heart.
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"Would you ever say to me Clarice, stop? If you love me you'd stop?"

"I came half way around the world to watch you run Clarice, let me run huh?"

[darkfox]

i've never been all that great or keen on poetry but this is really heavy. i dunno even what to say about it other than that.

to be honest, given your history...i'd be leary of these feelings dominating your better sense. keep your wits about you.

heavy stuff though. takes courage to write it down, let alone share it. kudos.
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[anthropomorphic skitzo]

thanks man

yeah these days i don't put up with someone bringing me down or being anything less than they 1st presented themselves to be.
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"Would you ever say to me Clarice, stop? If you love me you'd stop?"

"I came half way around the world to watch you run Clarice, let me run huh?"

[S.T.A.R.S. Armourer]

Good to hear that. Hang onto it. I'm sure its servin ya well. But that situation sounds both good and bad.
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And it's on through the night
and I know deep inside
that something evil stands in the way
Sing it all through the night
Through these hot summer streets
And take no for an answer?
no I'll never walk away